Life Stories

Finally Free

For years, when Christi Brown looked in the mirror she didn’t like what she saw. Today she shares how her life was changed when she found freedom from insecurity.

Until two weeks ago, I didn’t know what life without insecurity was like. Self-worth, uncertainty, fear of what others thought of me, they were all things I wrestled with on a daily basis. On the outside I tried to hide it, but on the inside I was consumed by it. It was my identity.

Until two weeks ago.

I went to Milestone’s Freedom Weekend and the Holy Spirit began to stir something inside of me.

He began to shine a light on my insecurity and the root of that insecurity. There were things that I had never allowed myself to even think of because I wasn’t willing to deal with them head on. I didn’t want to deal with them because if I shared them, then I was letting others know what happened to me.

It was that day that I realized that if I wanted freedom, I had to be 100% real. I had to let others know my story, my pain, and my insecurity. I had to let people in, past the facade that I worked way so hard to maintain. I cried ALL day!

The Holy Spirit whispered to areas of hurt, rejection, and pain that I did not realize I had stuffed down. He was so sweet to me in those moments and I am thankful that He showed them to me the way He did. My kids noticed a difference. My daughter asked why I looked so different. In the days and weeks following I noticed a change in my thought patterns.

I no longer gazed in the mirror at my body and evaluated what I did and didn’t like. I no longer engaged in self-deprecating conversations. I no longer felt like I was less-than.

My soul was free.

I literally felt a weight lifted off of my shoulders. God showed up big for me.

I heard about Pastor Jeff’s new book, Who Am I? and immediately I started thinking about who I could share it with. It speaks to the same issues like identity and insecurity that I wrestled with for years and I know God’s going to use it to help people understand who they are in Christ. Can’t wait! 

Christi, thank you for sharing your inspiring story with us. We are so glad you are a part of our spiritual family here at Milestone!

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  • Lory B
    November 30, 2017 at 5:46 pm

    You are beautiful inside and out! Thank you for sharing your story. Freedom is absolutely A life changer if you are open, honest and have faith. My chains were broken, my insecurities lifted, my trust and faith are like never before. I can not wait to lead a group and let God do the rest in his children’s life’s.

  • Robin Schuchman
    November 30, 2017 at 5:58 pm

    Christi has shown my kids so much compassion and they love going to church on small group night’s to spend time with Mrs. Christi! Thank you for being you and loving our children as your own!
    Sincerely, The Schuchman family.

  • Pastor Ron
    November 30, 2017 at 6:38 pm

    I love this family and I celebrate Christi’s new found freedom. May God use Freeedom Weekends and “Who Am I?” to bring countless others to these same conclusions.

  • Stacey Hatcher
    November 30, 2017 at 10:06 pm

    I love you, Christi! So excited to hear how God worked in your life during the Freedom study and Freedom Weekend – so powerful!! You’re awesome and I know God will continue to use you in even mightier ways.

  • Jordan Fowler
    December 1, 2017 at 2:55 pm

    Awesome story of finding freedom. Keep walking in it! Can’t wait for the next round of Freedom to launch so even more people get to experience this.

  • Mike Banas
    December 1, 2017 at 4:34 pm

    Thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable. It never ceases to amaze me that when we surrender all to our Lord He takes our ashes and turns them to beauty. Christi, I am so happy for you and your new mind set which the Holy Spirit deposited directly into your account.
    You have such a wonderful family and the best is yet to come. Your latter days will be so full and what the enemy has attempted to steal, he will now have to repay 7 fold.
    So excited for you all!

  • Amy
    December 1, 2017 at 10:29 pm

    Christi, thank you for sharing your story! I absolutely love that your children saw a change on the outside reflecting what the Lord had done on the inside!!